Most of the time, I struggle with topics to write about here in Cyrsti’s Condo until today when I came up with too many. So I had to choose one and save one for tomorrow.
Todays post deals with the walks I have resumed taking since the weather has briefly cooled off this week. Also, I seem to be reaping the extra energy of shedding pounds on this new diet my partner Liz and I are on. So far, the ten or so pounds I have lost have given me extra energy.
None of that though has anything to do with todays’ post.
Usually, on my walks, I don’t see anyone else except the occasional young girl or girls riding their bicycles up and down the street. They don’t ever pay me any attention I can tell. This morning there was only one girl pedaling across the street. As I glanced at her, I wondered how it would have been to live as my authentic self at her age.
Realistically I know each binary gender has it’s own challenges and sometimes the grass does look greener on the other side of the gender street.
How would it have been to be the pursed rather than the pursuer in the dating world. Especially if I wasn’t pursued at all?
How would it have been to grow up as a second class gender citizen?
Those are just two questions I have out of many.
The bottom line is I would have not had to struggle with gender dysphoria which would have given me so much more energy to put into my life as a girl growing up.
My only natural preference. What if.
Living in the past or the future is a waste though. Being able to salvage the present and live as a fulltime transgender woman has made it all worth it.